Love?

In the past days, I have written a bunch of stories about that girl (Here, here and here).

In the last one, I’ve written that I want to back off a little to give her some room. That also worked, but only for a split second.

Currently, she’s the first thought coming into my mind in the morning and the last thought when I go to sleep. The first thing I do is check if she sent a snap.

Since yesterday she has headaches and nausea. I tried to cheer her up with some tips. All of them didn’t work. This morning I asked how she feels today.

The headaches got better, but the nausea is still there. It makes me worry about her. And it’s distracting me from work.

Is seems like I can’t get her out of my head.

It probably also isn’t good that I’m listening to the Bee Gees on repeat (“Tragedy” and “If I can’t have you”).

But is that how love feels? I’ve been so long alone now that I can’t order my feeling correctly. That’s bothering me.

I thought I knew how love feels as soon as I would feel it. But do I feel it? Or am I just in a feel strange mode right now?