This Blog Post was originally published on the platform "writelier" (formerly "co-writers" and "200wordsaday"). Sadly the blogging platform was discontinued. I downloaded all my blog posts and prepared them to be republish them here.
As I have written before, I did a paramedic shift with the Girl I talked about in the mentioned posts.
Beeing together 24 hours definitely lets you talk about a bunch of stuff. As we were joking about relationships, she brought up that she is currently enjoying the fact that she doesn't have a boyfriend. I'm not sure if I have already written about her last relationship, but to sum it but, it ended badly.
We sent each other some memes from Instagram, and I tried to subconsciously tell her that I might want more than just friend. As I sent here a little pervert stuff (nothing porny), she called out to me that I would definitely need a girlfriend.
That was the time I figured out that I'm probably friend-zoned. She also mentioned that out of respect for her grandfather (that died the week before), she won't go out and party the rest of the year and that she won't be seeking a relationship for now.
Sure, I could interpret something wrong, but on the other side, I didn't do anything to make my point clear.
The problem I've got is, as soon as I'm talking to a girl I like, my brain jams itself. I can talk to her for hours about paramedic stuff, but as soon as I want to talk about some stuff that would be important for me, I'm out of words.
For now, I'm going to back off a little bit from her. I will continue to snap(-chat) with her and of course, I will be helping her to get her paramedic licence.
If we don't get in a "love" relationship, at least I got a really good new friend. And as good friends are rare, I can live with that, if necessary.