2019

This Blog Post was originally published on the platform "writelier" (formerly "co-writers" and "200wordsaday"). Sadly the blogging platform was discontinued. I downloaded all my blog posts and prepared them to be republish them here.

As I have written yesterday, I am on the same thought as Brandon according to resumes and resolutions.

But I also wrote that I will be writing a resume post anyway. But it will be a true one.

Let's start with the base level feeling of the whole year: Exhausting and stressful. Looking back that would be the best feeling describing my year.

I can't remember the first few months of the year clearly. The main memories start in May and June.

The paramedic night shifts got worse and worse. My sleep started to become poorer and poorer. It started to affect my mood. I knew something had to change and I knew what I had to do. Move.

In June I made a "life-changing" decision in buying an Apartment with money I didn't have. If I think back at the hard time I had during March and May it was the best decision I made this year. But it was also a costly one.

On the other side, I think if I had continued the night shifts, I would probably have burned out by now.

July and August mostly blurred into the Wacken Open Air and the renovation of the new Apartment.

The months after August also blur together. Mostly in work-related stuff, I can't and don't want to talk about.

Summing up December, it was the first month where I feel better again. The paramedic shifts and it's crappy sleep schedule varnished out of my mind. The Apartment is almost done (some walls still need to be repainted).

But December also had a bummer that really put a damper on my mood again.

I won't say that the new year is going to make everything better, but at least I feel like it is getting better.

Thinking back to June, and the worst night I had in my paramedic life (at least till today), that was probably my tipping point.

Thinking paramedical about that day and my mood again, I was near depression and burnout. And by near, I mean tipping point near. That day was the changing point of the year.

I could have suffered depression from that day on. Thankfully I "took the chance" and changed. I don't want to imagine where I would be if a depressing mood had taken over.